A Personal Journal of Grace and Discipleship

“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God,who loved me and gave himself for me.” - Galatians 2:20

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The Exchanged Life: Finding Freedom and Wholeness Through Spirituotherapy

In a world filled with competing counseling models, it’s not uncommon to find contrasting views on what “biblical” or “Christian” counseling truly means. Searching for answers can feel overwhelming, and the terms alone—“biblical counseling” versus “Christian counseling”—can spark endless debates on how, or whether, secular counseling methodologies fit within a Christian framework.

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Pentecost — The Full Blessing of the Spirit (Part 1)
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Pentecost — The Full Blessing of the Spirit (Part 1)

Pentecost wasn’t just a sudden spiritual event—it was the culmination of a divine timeline woven through the feasts of Israel. Fifty days after Christ’s resurrection, the feast of Pentecost fulfilled the typology laid out in Leviticus: from the offering of the first sheaf to the full harvest. Christ, raised from the dead, ascended secretly on the morning of His resurrection—not the visible ascension seen later by His disciples, but a private offering of Himself to the Father as the firstfruit of the harvest. That intimate moment, hidden from human eyes, satisfied the heart of God.

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Not for Sale: Speaking in Christ
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Not for Sale: Speaking in Christ

There’s a sobering line Paul wrote to the Corinthians: “We are not, like so many, peddlers of God’s Word…” In E. Stanley Jones’s reflection for today, this phrase slices through the veneer of ministry motives. He contrasts those who peddle God's Word for attention, ego, or livelihood with those who speak in Christ—from a place of sincerity, sentness, and accountability before God.

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The Peace That Holds All Things Together
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The Peace That Holds All Things Together

Jesus doesn’t merely give peace—He gives His peace. Not a substitute, not an approximation. What He enjoyed in perfect union with the Father is now ours in Him. This peace isn’t circumstantial, conditional, or fragile. It’s blood-secured, heaven-ordained, and Spirit-guarded. It unites all things in Him—Jew and Gentile, earth and heaven, sinner and holy God. He Himself is our peace, and in Him we’re not just recipients of calm—we are dwellers in the very realm of peace.

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Open Windows of Influence
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Open Windows of Influence

T. Austin-Sparks offers a powerful reminder that life in the Spirit is never passive. If Christ lives in us, then His presence cannot go unnoticed. The Holy Spirit doesn’t simply make us nicer people; He makes us living vessels through which Jesus registers His presence upon the world. Sparks’ bold assertion—that there should be “nothing neutral about any Christian”—is not a call to strive, but a call to yield.

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Unceasing Prayer
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Unceasing Prayer

Paul writes that he never stopped praying for the Colossians—even though he'd never met most of them. Chained to a Roman guard, managing visitors, and writing letters, he still managed a life of unceasing prayer. How? Because prayer, in its truest form, is not an event on a schedule—it’s a life breathed moment by moment in quiet communion with God. Paul’s example reminds us that continual prayer isn’t about closing our eyes and folding our hands, but about living with an open heart and upward gaze in every situation.

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Leaning Is Loving
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Leaning Is Loving

What does it really mean to love Jesus? According to today’s reflection from A.B. Simpson, it means to lean. Not just a polite tilt or cautious dependence—but a full resting of all that we are on all that He is. The quote from the missionary encounter cuts deep: “If you love me, lean hard.” There’s something intimate, even vulnerable, in trusting someone enough to let your weight fall onto them. This is exactly what Jesus invites: a love that proves itself through restful surrender, not nervous reserve.

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God's Promise to Deliver Israel
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God's Promise to Deliver Israel

God’s covenant heart is never passive toward those He loves. Today’s passage walks us through a rich sequence of divine declarations, reminding us that His promises are never vague or delayed without purpose. From a bush aflame with holy fire, God speaks clarity and certainty to Moses: “I will send… I will be with you… I will bring you up… I will stretch out My hand…” Each statement flows like a current of deliverance—one that begins in bondage but rushes toward bounty.

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The Tree of Life
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The Tree of Life

Salvation isn’t just a cleanup of the old—it’s a complete replacement of the source. What God has done in Christ is far more than forgiveness and cleansing; He has given us new life by placing us into the Last Adam, not mending the old, but grafting us into a new root entirely (2 Corinthians 5:17). J.N. Darby reminds us: cultivating the crucified old man may dress up its appearance, but it can never change its nature. The old tree can never bear the fruit of the new life.

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Christ’s Death: Heaven’s Determined Plan
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Christ’s Death: Heaven’s Determined Plan

The cross was not a tragic twist in a noble story, nor a sudden solution to human failure. From eternity past, the Triune God held a counsel—a loving, divine decision—where it was determined that Christ would come, take on flesh, and be slain as the spotless Lamb. Acts 2:23 and 1 Peter 1:19–20 reveal that His crucifixion was foreknown, foreordained, and freely chosen in love.

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The Irresistible Fragrance of Christ
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The Irresistible Fragrance of Christ

Some victories are thunderous. Others come quietly, like fragrance on a breeze—undeniable, yet impossible to grasp or resist. E. Stanley Jones invites us to see that the triumph of Christ in us is not merely inward. It radiates. When we yield to His indwelling life, the aroma of His character spreads through us in the most ordinary places—without striving, without force.

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The Stillness That Cannot Be Shaken
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The Stillness That Cannot Be Shaken

The peace Jesus gives is not like the fragile stillness the world offers—it’s His own, blood-secured, heaven-ordained peace. This peace doesn’t merely calm us; it anchors us into His life. It was purchased at the cross and now resides in every believer, not as a concept to chase, but as a reality to draw from. It is God's own peace, extended by Christ the Son and treasured by the Father, freely given to us as those who dwell in Christ.

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When I Cannot Move, I Remain
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When I Cannot Move, I Remain

The greatest display of strength isn’t always seen in forward motion—it’s often found in the quiet resolve to remain. T. Austin-Sparks invites us to look through the window of Ephesians 3:16, not at the outer world of circumstances, but deep into the inner chamber where Christ dwells. The spiritual life is not defined by how impressive our thoughts or feelings are, but by the unwavering presence of the Holy Spirit in our innermost being. When logic shouts we’ve failed, when emotions freeze or spiral, when every visible sign says “retreat”—there remains a still and steady strength that doesn’t originate from us but abides within us.

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Prayer’s Delays
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Prayer’s Delays

There are seasons when we wait in silence, wondering if God has heard us. When circumstances confuse or unsettle us, the temptation is strong to conclude that faith has failed, or prayer has fallen flat. But in truth, the delay is not denial—it is divine training. As Ray Stedman points out, when we say “faith doesn’t work,” we’re unknowingly questioning the very character of God. His promises are not placeholders for disappointment. They are anchors in the unseen.

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Filled with the Spirit, Full in Every Way
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Filled with the Spirit, Full in Every Way

To be filled with the Spirit is not a fleeting emotional high or a mere theological concept—it is the present, abiding reality of Christ expressing His life through ours. A.B. Simpson reminds us that the effects of this Spirit-filled life are holistic and radiant. It's not about achieving perfection in our human efforts, but about resting in the perfection of the divine nature that dwells within us.

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God’s Promises to Abraham
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God’s Promises to Abraham

God’s promises to Abraham were not a one-time declaration, but a stream of covenantal grace that rippled through history and culminated in Christ. These promises were expansive—land, nation, blessing, and a future Redeemer—not just for Abraham, but for all who would live by faith. Abraham’s call was radical: leave everything known, and follow a voice to an unseen inheritance. And yet, what he left behind could never compare to what he gained.

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Personal Deliverance
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Personal Deliverance

God’s promise to His children isn’t the safety of their possessions or a life of fairness—it’s the security of His presence wherever we go. Oswald Chambers points us back to Jeremiah, where God commands His servant not to fear and not to seek “great things” for himself. That call is still ours today. When our personal expectations and our need for justice creep in, we subtly remove ourselves from the shelter of God’s deliverance. He has not promised to preserve our dreams or reputations—but He has promised to preserve our lives.

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Truth, or Consequences
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Truth, or Consequences

Today’s devotional from Miles Stanford invites us to distinguish between truth and experience. Experience may echo truth—or distort it—but the Word of God is unchanging and speaks from the heart of a faithful Father. When we mistake our fluctuating emotions or spiritual struggles for indicators of God’s heart toward us, we sink into confusion and self-evaluation. But Scripture speaks from His unchanging love, not our changing moods.

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Repenting for the Kingdom—Part 2
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Repenting for the Kingdom—Part 2

The repentance Witness Lee writes about in today’s devotion is not the kind we usually think of—where we regret an obvious sin or misstep. This is deeper. This is repentance not just from sin but from self-rule. Lee points out that many believers are saved but not yet under the kingship of Christ. That may sound shocking, but it’s true: it’s possible to trust Jesus for salvation and yet remain functionally independent in how we live.

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Genesis 13 – The Separation of Abram and Lot: Eyes That Wander, Feet That Walk by Faith
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Genesis 13 – The Separation of Abram and Lot: Eyes That Wander, Feet That Walk by Faith

Genesis 13 records a significant parting between Abram and Lot, one marked not by conflict but by wisdom and grace. Their herds had grown too large for the land they shared, and tensions flared between their herdsmen. Rather than demanding his rights, Abram graciously offers Lot the first choice of land. Lot, enticed by the lush beauty of the Jordan plain, chooses what appears outwardly desirable—land reminiscent of Eden and Egypt—but with a dark undercurrent: it is near Sodom. The text hints at the danger in that decision, as Sodom is already marked for judgment. Lot follows his eyes. Abram, in contrast, walks by promise. After Lot departs, the Lord reaffirms His covenant with Abram, calling him to walk the land and view it with eyes of faith. Abram obeys, builds an altar, and once again anchors his trust in God’s promises.

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Hosea 5: When God Withdraws to Be Sought
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Hosea 5: When God Withdraws to Be Sought

Hosea 5 brings God’s verdict to the leaders and people of Israel and Judah. Their sin wasn’t surface-level—it was habitual, cultivated, and infecting every layer of life, from politics to worship. The priests had set traps rather than offered guidance. Sacrifices continued, but relationship with God had long been abandoned. Their pride blinded them to correction. Even as calamity approached, instead of turning to God, they looked to Assyria for protection—seeking a cure from the same world that enabled their sickness. But the Lord, not Assyria, is the only true healer.

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