A Personal Journal of Grace and Discipleship

“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God,who loved me and gave himself for me.” - Galatians 2:20

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The Exchanged Life: Finding Freedom and Wholeness Through Spirituotherapy

In a world filled with competing counseling models, it’s not uncommon to find contrasting views on what “biblical” or “Christian” counseling truly means. Searching for answers can feel overwhelming, and the terms alone—“biblical counseling” versus “Christian counseling”—can spark endless debates on how, or whether, secular counseling methodologies fit within a Christian framework.

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Forgiveness That Gets You On Your Feet
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Forgiveness That Gets You On Your Feet

Grace always moves first. That is the heartbeat of today’s reading from Matthew 9, where Jesus speaks forgiveness to a paralyzed man, then tells him to rise, take up his bed, and go home. The order matters. Forgiveness is not a reward for walking well. Walking well flows from being forgiven. Witness Lee highlights this so clearly, and I am grateful for the way he keeps our eyes on Jesus and His authority to forgive right here on earth.

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Correction That Brings Us Closer
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Correction That Brings Us Closer

Growing up, correction never seemed kind. Most of us argued, compared punishments with our siblings, and insisted it was unfair. Pastor Kristen Schildroth names what time has taught us. Loving correction guards us from greater harm and points us toward life. In the same way, the Lord’s discipline is not payback. It is protection and rescue.

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Sacrifice That Opens Into Life
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Sacrifice That Opens Into Life

Easter joy is not thin or sentimental. It is radiant because Jesus first gave Himself without reserve. Rev. Kristen Schildroth traces that beautiful thread in John 12. The grain of wheat goes into the ground and dies, then life springs up. Resurrection glory comes through self-giving love. That is the pattern of our Lord, and it becomes the pattern of our life in Him.

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Surrendered Choices, Wide Open Life
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Surrendered Choices, Wide Open Life

We often equate freedom with unlimited options, as if the more choices we keep in our hands, the happier we will be. Pastor Kristen Schildroth turns that idea on its head. Drawing from 1 Corinthians 10, she shows that the abundant life Jesus gives is wonderfully free, yet it comes with a cost. The cost is not a payment to earn life. The cost is the surrender of our self ruled will to the Lord who loves us.

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Reverent Hearts, Ready Ears
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Reverent Hearts, Ready Ears

There is a kind of holy attentiveness that opens the door to fellowship with God. Today’s reading from His Victorious Indwelling points to Isaiah 66, where the Lord looks with favor on the one who is humble and contrite in spirit, and who trembles at His word. That trembling is not terror. It is a loving awe that says, Father, Your voice matters most to me.

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Kept in Peace, Kept in Jesus
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Kept in Peace, Kept in Jesus

Anxiety is loud. It grabs our hands, tells us to hold life together, and calls that control. E. Stanley Jones points us back to Philippians 4, where the Father invites us to trade anxious clutching for grateful surrender in prayer. The promise is not a thin calm. It is the peace of God that guards our hearts and our minds in Jesus.

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Uttermost Love In Ordinary Moments
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Uttermost Love In Ordinary Moments

Love is easy to talk about, and hard to practice when someone has crossed a line or worn us out. T. Austin-Sparks points us to Jesus who loved His friends to the uttermost, not as a sentiment, but as a basin and towel kind of love. He knew their weaknesses. He moved toward them anyway. That is the shape of real love.

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Alive With Jesus, Done With Sin
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Alive With Jesus, Done With Sin

Grace is not a permission slip, it is a new life. Ray Stedman draws out Paul’s sharp question from Romans 6, asking whether grace means we keep on sinning. That question makes sense at first glance, because if forgiveness is full and free, why worry. But Paul’s answer is a thunderclap. We died to sin. In Jesus, something decisive has already happened at the core of who we are.

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The Quiet Clock of God
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The Quiet Clock of God

God’s vision keeps perfect time. Sometimes His plans bloom quickly, like spring crocuses that appear almost overnight. Other times, the unfolding is slow and quiet. Simpson reminds us that delay is not denial. It is ripening. The Father is never late. He is never hurried. He is never guessing. He moves with a steady love that brings His purpose to full sweetness.

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Waiting That Lifts, Not Drains
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Waiting That Lifts, Not Drains

Isaiah sings over tired people. He points us away from the grind of self-reliance and toward the Lord who meets us in our limits. Bob Hoekstra captures this so well, reminding us that real renewal does not come from youth, talent, or drive. It comes from waiting on the Lord. Isaiah 40 says that those who wait on the Lord trade their weariness for new capacity. They mount up, they run, they walk, and they do not quit. That is not a pep talk. That is a promise rooted in who God is and what He gives.

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Leaving the Shadows, Living in the Light
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Leaving the Shadows, Living in the Light

Oswald Chambers points us to a simple, searching question. Am I keeping anything in the shadows. He reminds us that secret thoughts, quiet envies, and clever spin are out of step with the gospel. The call is not to perform a spiritual scrub with gritted teeth. The call is to step into the light where Jesus already stands, and to agree with the truth that sets us free.

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Hidden in the Son, Held by the Father
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Hidden in the Son, Held by the Father

The heart of today’s reading points us back to where the Father has placed us, not to what we were trying to repair in ourselves. In Jesus we have been reconciled, brought near, and located in a new place. The Father sees us there, in His Son, not in our former condition. That placement is not an idea for a journal margin, it is the living center of a new life.

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Forgiven, Then Rising
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Forgiven, Then Rising

The scene in Matthew 9 is tender and startling. Friends carry a paralyzed man to Jesus. Before anyone asks for a miracle, Jesus goes straight to the deepest need, He speaks forgiveness. Some religious leaders stiffen inside, because only God can forgive sins. That is exactly the point. Jesus is not guessing at the man’s condition, He is God in the flesh, and He knows the heart.

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Safe in the Line of Fire
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Safe in the Line of Fire

The Victorious Life is both the safest place and the most contested place. Trumbull reminds us that when we trust Jesus as our victory, we often find ourselves on the front line. The enemy aims at living billboards of the Lord’s sufficiency. Yet even under fire, we are kept, because our safety does not rest on our record, it rests on the unchanging grace of our Savior.

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The Rock-Solid “Is” Of Grace
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The Rock-Solid “Is” Of Grace

There are moments when temptation or trouble hits faster than a sentence can form. Trumbull reminds us that Jesus is not waiting for us to compose the perfect words before He acts. Scripture does not say grace will be sufficient if we ask at the right time. It says grace is sufficient. That tiny word is the steady ground under our feet when everything else is shifting.

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Grace Does the Lifting
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Grace Does the Lifting

The heart of today’s reading is simple and refreshing. Trumbull points us away from white-knuckle religion and back to the gift of grace. Not a vague attitude from God, but His active work in us and for us. He insists that the Christian life is not primarily about what we do for God, it is about what God has already done for us in Jesus and what He keeps doing in us by His Spirit.

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When Victory Arrives As A Gift
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When Victory Arrives As A Gift

Many of us long for real victory over sin, yet we quietly assume that such victory is only for later, after this life. Trumbull’s chapter meets us right there. He reminds us that what we ache for is not far off. It is present in Jesus, offered as a gift to be received, not a prize to be earned. Thank you, Charles G. Trumbull, for putting courage back into tired hearts and for pointing us to the simplicity of receiving from the risen Lord.

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Gifted, Not Gritted
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Gifted, Not Gritted

Many of us were taught to chip away at sin little by little, as if victory were a garden we weed by hand. Trumbull reminds us that the New Testament speaks of victory as a gift, not a grind. He tells the story of believers who loved Jesus and served faithfully, yet lived under a quiet burden of trying harder. His message is simple and freeing. Real victory is received from Jesus, counterfeit victory is achieved by self-effort.

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Winning From Within
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Winning From Within

There is only one life that truly wins, the life of Jesus lived in us. Charles G. Trumbull tells it like a friend across the table, not with lofty theory, but with a witness that warms the heart. He admits the swings we know too well, up for a time after a stirring message, then back down when old patterns pull. His turning point was not a new method. It was a new seeing of an old promise. Jesus does not only stand beside us. He lives within us as our very life.

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He Does The Heavy Lifting
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He Does The Heavy Lifting

Philippians asks us to test what we call the Christian life. Trumbull presses a kind question. Is my kind of Christianity worth sharing with the world. Not the faith in theory, but the life I carried yesterday and this morning. He points to the only version that is worth exporting. The life that Jesus Himself lives.

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